今日無返教會，發覺自己原來真係好累，lunch後又再訓多幾粒鐘

一如以往，好想走...但發覺人愈大，愈難去離開comfort zone, 當你乜都無你會唔介意放低手頭上的一切去試，但你老了，就連試的本錢也愈縮愈少...要放棄手上的雞肋原來都要頗大勇氣，尤其是你身邊的人不斷同你講，返到黎預左又要重新黎過，好灰....

算啦，唔諗住啦....隔多一排先啦....但 係我真係唔想過annual.....點算?

i feel super bored recently. Even dont know how to describe my real feelings are. easily cry, dun wanna talk, dont wanna share my hard feelings, become more introvert. thats no good, i know. but i cant find anyway to tackle.

i tried  i tried, to pray. but frankly, the answer was not instant

perhaps i am workaholic, cant stay comfortable after work. I know, i will feel a lot better on Monday, when i push my head down against those documents. however, life should not be that.

Hey friends, dont show too much concern over this, i would feel embarrassed.

IS that people growing older more reluctant to tell feelings and cry ?

A lot of question marks about life. And be more specific, human beings.

Feel Sick

I am sick.

Fuck off, work. My hatred grows towards this inhumane company. Probably I expected too much...concerns and care besides pushing me to submitting my assignment. What the hell is going on with this fucking company. This can tell why it keeps losing people. Those cant stand their bossy management style!

I dont know why I became sooooo angry, probably I dont feel well and I feel myself a slave, only, here.

Is there anywhere else at work we can experience a bit more concern and love? Is it too demanding?

Life is sweet recently. And it makes me miss my God more.

Hey God, you cant believe, I miss u very much ah~

Should be time to pull myself together and read some Bible and pray a lot more.

Thanks God for whatever you did to me. Everything coming out from your hand is so wonderful, no matter it makes me happy or upset. Thanks lots.

Heard my friend's dispute over mis-communication. What a pity. It's obviously pride obstructs their communication channel. Hope they will get resolved very soon.

The old question comes up once again: Should I stay here?

Cant imagine how my thought changed after the recent incident. It's more or less 180 degrees. A lot more freedom in choosing my next job, but the point is, what do I really love to do now? It seems nothing is worthy of me dedicating my whole life working on. Probably, a lot praying is needed.

Won Mark Six

What happened this week is more than winning Mark Six to me. Sweet and happy for the whole week.

Oh God, I will spend time exploring if it is your will/plan. If yes, thank you very much. I like this very much and You really know me. It is exactly what I want.

Feeling comfortable...hahaha~ Really cant imagine it's going to happen on me! :)